Traveling!!! Almost every other Friday, I can be found traveling back home on same route by same bus. But every time I meet different people, see different things. No I am not going to tell any travel story today. I planned to write it but my mind wasn’t allowing doing anything. I was just not in state of doing anything interesting. It was just like having a nervous breakdown. Even being at home for weekend did not cheer me up.
Sitting besides a keyboard, I just kept pressing next button in JetAudio without listening a single word from any singer.
Being thinking about nothing for long time, I forgot some philosophical stuff I thought on recent bus journey.
I forgot to copy photos from my phone to PC.
I refused to do anything my cousin asked me.
I denied going in market with dad to buy some grocery.
My head was jam but still Mom made excellent Tea didn’t attract me.
Irritated and irritated, I found myself behaving like a paranoid.
Somehow my mother convinced me to attend some after marriage function (not reception, some traditional Pooja) somewhere. Reluctantly, returned to bedroom to change and noticed my mobile lying on the bed with some movement on screen. I picked up it without looking at callers name. Someone said, “Hello, where you have been my dear!!” in such creamy voice that I lost control on heartbeats. My legs just gave away me and made me slip on the bed. My voice also betrayed me and a grunt or some stupid sound left from mouth.
Whoa!! So this was the thing I kept missing. Somebody’s voice!!! Managing to get some vocal transmission powers back I started talking. I told her I was missing her so badly that I forgot what I was missing! Or may be I forgot about everything and just lost my mind for some time. She was being same mental jerk there from yesterday. And somehow we synchronized our feeling.
Now I think, missing someone too desperately isn’t a bad thing at all.
Or is it?