lost treasure…. lost smile

“He is natural, this Suda, really refreshing personality”

“He is just a child yaar, don’t talk about personality, he is just sweet”

“This boy is simply born to smile and make us smile”

“Suda, will you please control and try not to smile while I am trying to teach?”
—>”What? no I am not smiling at anything madam!! Why are you saying that?”

“No madam, his face is have that smile always, he is not trying to intrude your teaching or anything :P”

“I love it when you smile, make me shiver with…..”


I remember hearing these lines every now and then at home, in school, from teachers, from neighbours, at playgrounds, from junior college staff, at Engineering classes, from lecturers(Ladies!!!!) who were hardly a year older than me, from my classmates and now only from my (will be) soulmate!! My grandma always did “Najar Utaro Bachcheki” stuff whenever she got chance. (Somebody please explain “Najar Utarna” in English for others).
All this stuff is in past tense!!Β Β  Isn’t it?

Why? (That is an interesting question!!)

I don’t know, no, or do I?.

I used to write poems from childhood. I used to paint interesting (not artistic or good) paintings, I used to sing well when encouraged. I was so soft by nature that I never snapped back or quarreled with anybody who troubled me. And what about now? Don’t ask(and I suggest don’t try provoking me if you care for your health πŸ˜› )

Ohh enough of this “I was like this…” “I was like that…”

Why I am not like that now?

At least do I have my precious smile still?

Its there always, I know, someone brings it back always, but its not long lasting like it used to!!

I am rethinking about these changes today!!!

Reasons? Will find out soon.

I am thinking all this today because few hours ago, while chatting with my co-worker friends,Β  I remembered an incident of past. In 12th,Β  I was very ill. My father too had lost his hope and at least once he thought he will never see me again. But I was oblivious to all these things and was as usual cheerful. When doctor told me I am ill with something and its little dangerous, I just replied,” Hey doc, just tell me how many days you want to cure me? I need to plan some study also. I am in 12th man!!!’. I never got why both doctors were stunned for few seconds and my father actually looked away.
And let me tell you, I just believed in my will-power, to make all these people smile again, I fought with those (I forgot names) illnesses (good word πŸ˜€ , disease is bad word ) and finally got rid of them.
The doctor and his wife said later, ” I have never had a patient like this. Because of him, I was able to cure other patients around him in less time.”

A grand new quest to bring smile back to my face is undertaken by myself. Will be joined by you-know-who soon.


P.S.Β  If this post is too much “About Me” or too much “I” “I” then “maaf karo bhai”(apologies) πŸ™‚

13 thoughts on “lost treasure…. lost smile

  1. well its ur blog where u can write anything n we are here to read everything πŸ˜† …
    well i thought of one of my classmate who always keep a wonderful smile on his face no matter even if he stands out of the school or on his knees πŸ˜€ …n for the reason almost all teachers leave him without much scoldings and has even being named as Chocolate boy by our maths teacher !!! πŸ˜†

    btw what happened after the illness , u r parents cud see u again na? πŸ˜›
    keep smiling πŸ™‚

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  3. //he’s face is have that smile// //I am trying to tech?”// typos!!

    Hey dont apologize..remember u write for urself not for others. Keep smiling keep shining always dear!!

  4. Hey thats the great attitute and i wish u keep it up whole ur life!

    even after u get married! πŸ˜› πŸ˜›

    But on a serious note, its heartening who thinks the smile is the cure for every thing, well almost everything! keep it up, u never know who will need it and when… the other person might actually blees u for the smile! πŸ™‚

  5. Rekha, u r behaving very sweet these days. Beware!!! πŸ™‚

    Reema, Yes Madam!! Corrected!! And I am too much polite you know πŸ˜€

    Xylene, Kisi weekend ko call karna, apani mehfil(rock concert) karenge πŸ˜›

    Sakhi, What do u mean by heartening here? πŸ™‚ And yes I have that attitude and it has done wonders always!!!

    Nikhil, has Rekha already slapped you? Your eyes and brain are suffering a little then πŸ˜› See I have named you “Yaake” long long ago.

  6. Nice to know you better Suda. You know, when I was in school I was mostly punished either for smiling or talking and once severely punished for giggling during prayers. I went to a convent school! I was glad to be out. I remember being very happy that I was free!

  7. Suda,
    I forgot to add, “Even I sing when encouraged and then I wont stop.
    And I like all my songs ”

    …. and anyone who has asked me to sing, has never asked me again.

  8. Awww cho chwwweet thing to share Suda…..I share the same incident..I got ill very bad twice..hhehhhe in 2005 I even lost my voice for 15 days!! And my dad was worried……

    Nazar utarna means- ward off the evil eye!

    keep smiling…….. πŸ˜€ And keep loving your dad!! and mom too..forgive me i am little prejudiced in this matter..

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