feelings

I wanted to resume blogging with a dhaasu post as Reema suggested, but NO.
Please note before reading further, you are warned!!

Feeling.
A word that describes what one feels.
I was being crushed under some feelings for last many days (and its not over yet).
here are those feelings (please forgive me for not elaborating the real life circumstances):

Helplessness
You know something is going to happen (sooner or later), something that is clearly going to ***k up your life (at least to some extent). And all you can do is wait and wait and wait and…..

Hopelessness
Now you know how helplessness is weaving its net around you closing in and trapping you, hopelessness is the one who takes things to next level. You stop seeing/finding any way out from the booby trap. you start feeling hopelessly helpless.

Lifelessness
When you are hopelessly helpless, you can’t help but feel everything a bit more lifeless. Nothing makes you happy, nothing makes you smile, nothing makes you feel envy anymore.

Pessimistically Optimistic
Until now, you are helpless, and you are hopelessly trying to do all lifeless routines, and then you reach a pessimistically optimistic feeling (something like,” It will be better to face it sooner than later”).
Leave me alone type of loneliness
Now you are optimistically expecting pessimistic things to happen, you want to be left alone. You need privacy, you need time for yourself……. in which you keep feeling lonely. You don’t want to be disturbed but it doesn’t mean you don’t want anyone around. Weird thing is, you want to be alone at the same time loneliness is killing you.

Idiotic Madness
At last you reach the supremacy. Now you are nearly mad or you think so. You behave like an idiot and ask stupid questions. You try keeping your loved ones at a distance (not that you don’t need them) because you fear their caring. You think you don’t deserve it. Life sucks. It screws you for things you ought to have done in past but you didn’t. You can’t understand Life fully, ever, no one can!! But this does not mean you shouldn’t try to understand, actually, you should!!

Then one day, your dear friend tells you to vent everything out, write it, tell others about it, and you think “yeah…”.
Next day, Life reminds you of everything written above by playing with you, playing!!
And after staring blankly at “Create New Post” box for half an hour, you start writing something at 3.15AM, and now you check the calendar and with a jolt of heart you notice that its the same day you were planning of returning to blogging.
Yes, I am back.
with new hopes (because, after Idiotic Madness, a news comes which tells you that Life haven’t given you up yet!!!)

Life is not as simple as it seems, or may be, it is.
Seriously
Suda

Confessions Revisited

Its a wrong title!!

But anyway, its high up there and I am not going to change it now.

Inspired from Best Tag Ever by Reema, and my old Confessions post, here I present Confessions Revisited!!!

ALL QUESTIONS ARE INVENTED BY ME, THEY ARE NOT AUTOMATICALLY GENERATED 😀

!!~ AND THIS IS NOT A TAG ~!!

This is a series of posts, and today’s post is All-Girls due to public demand.

Q. #1 What do you think about AlliRekha?
Ans: Think?? Now now, guys, she is just a child 😀 Chotisi nanhisi pyarisi bachchi hai!!! 😛

Q. #2 Say something about Reema!! 😈
Ans:

Fat? No,
Small?? Noo,
Shy? WTH?,
Sweet? errr!,
Sporting? Yeah 🙂 ,
Cool? Do you mean Cold(blooded)?  😛 ,
Sexy? Can I say pass?
Tall? oi, don’t you get bored?,
Slim? You wish!!! 😛
Intelligent? Who is not? But this girl have too much brainpower!! I wish I can steal some from her!!
Her Smile? I just know how much she laughs! Can’t control once it starts. Unbelievable? Yeah I know what you mean 😀
Her hair? you want me to get killed?
Her blog? Best thing happened to her in life. Well may be second best thing 😀
Her Friendship? I wish I had her as friend from childhood 9and I wish I will have her as friend till eternity) (Are you feeling okay, Suda?).
What will you gift her? Questioner, you are so boring that I am quiting now. The End.

Q. #3 You were saying something about Nita yesterday??
Ans: Ohh Thanks for reminding 😀 . I was saying that if she doen’t comment on my blog now, then I will burst in to her house and eat everything in Fridge, Big Dabba’s and steal her keyboard and bribe one of her daughter to hide behind her bedroom door and shout Bhooooooo very loudly as she enters!!!

Q. #4 What is most unusual thing about Shefaly?
Ans: Wait a minute!! You are not supposed to ask questions about her!! She gets angrily amused by such nonsense!! Now you have done this…. ab bhugto!! 😀 I am not saying anything to Shefaly Didi (and now I know she understands Marathi) so this question is not valid. I request it to be removed from records and everyone who read it please mark it as unread and don’t read it. 😀

Q. #5 Whats the matter with Sulz? I don’t see you commenting on her blog even you say you like her?
Ans: I am glad you asked!! Well, no, not exactly glad. Err, the problem is, my office firewall has listed her blog in Porn category WHICH IS TOTALLY UNFAIR!!!
When I tried telling our System’s Guys about it, they totally misunderstood me and jumped to their PC’s to browse her blog 😀 😛 and I ran away before facing their dis-appointed facial expressions!
Sometimes I feel bad about this and sometimes find it funny. I am not sure how she will react now.

Q. #6 Hey, who is this Scorpria?
Ans: A very cute girl who has long curly hair, sweet voice, nice bathroom 😀 , a cool blog and much very good sense of humor. Okay, now forget first two points. 😛

Q. #7 What is importance of Sakhi in your life?
Ans: She always do rescue me from Reema (who comes in my dreams to teach Greek Language) and then give me lots of Pani-Puri’s(in dreams of course).

Q. #8 Hi Rekha, how are you?
Ans: I PAID YOU TO ASK QUESTIONS TO ME,  NOT TO SOME GIRL JUST BECAUSE SHE IS SWEET!!!

Q. #9 If you are asked to throw Poonam and Nova, who will score more for you?
Ans: Can I eat them? 😀 Both are equally sweet and se…(no, I only eat sweets)

Q. #10 Do you know Aparna Go…something?
Ans: Ohh yeah, that girl, who looks like she is sneezing in her profile photo on WP? 😛

To be continued……

Okay, enough for today. People who are not mentioned here, don’t worry, aapka number bhi aayega!!!

Nita, change your profile photo for a change!! 😀

Disclaimer: No pun, trouble intended. Everything is just for fun!!

Enjoy.

Cheers.

always remember….

I got these wonderful thoughts by mail. I think everyone should think like this. At least try!!!

This should probably be taped

to your bathroom mirror

where one could read it every day.

You may not realize it,

but it’s 100% true.

1. There are at least two people in this world

that you would die for.

2. At least 15 people in this world

love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you

is because they want to

be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone,

even if they don’t

like you.

5. Every night,

SOMEONE thinks about you

before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. You are special and unique.

8. Someone that you don’t even know exists loves you.

9. When you make the biggest mistake ever,

something good comes from it.

10. When you think the world

has turned its back on you

take another look.

11. Always remember the compliments you received.

Forget about the rude remarks.

And always remember….

Good friends are like stars……..

You don’t always see them,

But you know they are always there.

I would rather have one rose and a kind word

from a friend while I’m here

than a whole truck load when I’m gone.

Forward to all your friends.

And don’t tell me you’re too busy for this..

Don’t you know the phrase

“stop and smell the flowers”?

See how many “bouquets” you end up with!

Cheers
Suda